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Saturday morning, I woke up again nightmares.
Fear, feel much until the heart wants to leave the rib cage,
I stood trembling just went to the bathroom and returned to bed.
My husband sleeps, I try to put my head on his back.
Hear the voices that laugh at me.
As if the dream is not yet awake.
I can assure you woke up 3 times in the morning,
Nobody sees or hears ...
you know how it is.
I go back to sleep.
Today the same situation but even more scary,
a child may urinate in bed with this kind of dreams.
I always fight, the dead, meat, and beasts that eat men.
I alone to fight everyone.
Always escape in the darkness.
And strength, strength to open many eyes.
Sometimes the feeling that never wake up.

I'm excited about making a new tattoo on my body.
I really thought for months,
and I think it's time to do something about
I had the idea something medium,
A red dragon and black, might be looking at pictures and listen to any advice.
The second option is a tiger.I saw an picture and whit some modifications surely I will like complet.
Here I leave some of the tattoos that I liked too,but them are too much to me.No just expensive...really great in both meanings.
I really like, I think that is very personal.

Parce qu´il n´y aura plus de place
Même plus le temps
Quand nos vies passent et s´effacent
Qui nous attend

Parce qu´il n´y aura plus de trace
De tous ces gens
Ces regards que l´on remplace
Qu´on aimait tant

Puisqu´on se noie dans la masse
D´un monde absent
Je t´ai gardé une place
Là dans mon sang

Et tu pourras dire
C´est un nouveau monde
Il te faut grandir
D´amour à chaque seconde
Et tu pourras lire
C´est la fin d´un monde
Tu pourras l´écrire
Au delà de mon ombre

Parce qu´il n´y a plus d´espace
On perd son temps
A toujours vouloir faire face
Rien d´important
Parce qu´on se cherche une place
On est vivant
C´est un peu d´éternité qui passe
Juste un instant

Et tu pourras dire
C´est un nouveau monde
Il te faut grandir
D´amour à chaque seconde
Et tu pourras lire
C´est la fin d´un monde
Tu pourras l´écrire
Au delà de mon ombre

Et tu pourras dire
C´est un nouveau monde
Il te faut grandir
D´amour à chaque seconde
Et tu pourras dire
C´est la fin d´un monde
Et main après main
On fermera la ronde
Et tu pourras dire
Je n´ suis plus seul au monde

Birthday my son,Salvador.
10 years old.
About him,sweet,the must innocent child,sensitive.
He born near at the middle night.
I was at my grandparents' house
and bag broke at 20 pm.
Labor did at home.
I had all the clothes in my mother's house.
So he was in the incubator until morning.
It was quick, painless.
And the midwife helped me and I helped my son to be born,
I held him below his little arms.
Until she came out and wrapped it up quickly to carry the balance.
very loving him.
He is always happy and rarely makes problem.
Sometimes he has his bad days, and a little sad.
He cares a lot for me.
when he was a baby was really tiny.
He is always beside me like a panda on bamboo.
Now they try not to lose the good things they had me.
By being together he and his brother, should love and help provided.
This is what I want.
Much happiness to both.


Felíz cumpleaños Salvi!
with all my heart =)







He is Dragon

He had reached the first light of day, while some were packing the last bag, commanders finishing touches.
When ready gets the first convoy of trucks on the road.
One hundred men escorted the four water tanks and the rest would go into another caravan to a maximum distance of 150 meters.
A few minutes earlier had received a radio alert from the security checkpoints.
therefore should be attentive to a possible attempt to plunder.
The first hours of travel were quiet to think of the notice.
driving at night and the soldiers took turns sleeping, and those who were awake were walking to the left and right of the truck.
When met six hours they stopped near the coast.
Since it was one of the quieter places to camp for one or two days.
While the team of trackers secured the area, the team that supports them mark the spot with sensors capable of detecting any kind of life.
Meanwhile, other tasks are divided, raising the shop and others took soil samples.
And as night fell over the camp the silence invaded the soldiers trying to warm themselves with blankets.
While Alexander and Wb away en route to the coast they're being followed.
YM is setting a new path on the map with the help of John.
N78 is back with his team.
Shedding backpacks inside the truck, a partner gives them blankets,
cold and go inside.
And when N78 unwittingly falls asleep next to a teammate.
A loud noise wakes her and the team quickly exits the truck and observed
that the same applies from the shops.
And the sound of gunfire and heavy explosions in the area they had cleared.
The third team out to look at the lieutenant and commander.
And the crawlers are sent back to the area where they had been.
But this time accompanied by other soldiers.
Alexander and W.b. reached hearing the explosion and was returning with the team in the cars that would get how fast possible.And took the short way to there.
Start the clash,
N78 is frozen and can not move.
The spotlights lit illuminated from cars stopped in front of them.
His team had night vision devices, like the rest.
However, these facilities were useless in this condition
The hands are numb and can not pull trigger.
Stay with her peers when she observes that behind one of the trucks someone.
And suddenly the blood of his teammate splashes on the face.
And with all the force and someone pushes with his hand on her head to the ground does not let up.
And the voice is heard shouting Wb his men to disperse.
Alexander take cover behind a hill of land for one seconds and lie on the floor too.
A few seconds that the bullets on the head, a girl throws a grenade, but is shot and falls.
Alexander came and pulled her by the boots to a high pasture beside a rather large rocks that covered him.
This very strong hands, he could do so quickly.
Wb loosen your hand and allows N78 to see his face.
_you are crazy? Mauser antitank M1918 is a single shot bolt action rifle
Do not move, expected to come to others.

She just stared into his eyes, unable to speak.
And rested her cheek on the ground.
While pasture behind the media team achieved after several attempts to contact the Commander John who was still gathering men and giving directions.
Communication is cut but they are underway.
So have to keep the position.
When there was silence,
whistle was heard in the wind.
both sides were hidden in darkness
and behind the reflector.
20 minutes had passed since the meeting.
Alexander spoke with the injured girl and asked to tranquilize.
But he understood that the most provable is that she dies within minutes.
Leaned back against the cold rock, then look up at the sky see a sparkler.
And the voice of John shouting that attack.
Move on.
They made the earth tremble under their feet with the sound of cal.12 Kord, 7 mm.
that shattered the shield of the cars, lights and those who attended near.
Alexander left the girl with the doctor,after go to the position where they were moved to W.B. and N78.
The Comander told to the soldier N78. return with his team and move to the cars.
Alexander have in his hands an Saiga 12K.
And make the good use of this.

While crawlers are moving towards the car, the three commanders drive close to the teams.
John gives the order to cease fire and alert, as the teams reviewed the place.
Y.M. gives the order to locate the wounded comrades, but that's not moving them.
And surrounding the conflict zone.
After 60 meters all seemed clear,
but did not have that these were the only ones.
Two more teams arrived, they are surround by the enemy, but behind these is the YM team
This did not stop the fighting and fired at them without mercy.
N78 falls.
But nobody sees it, is very dark.
W.B. advances in the passage of his men on the ground clearing the area to help the first team.
and when it appears that no one left.
Alexander says
-Not worth it.
His friend who came after him down the gun and looking around answers.
-ended
Then carefully to return and to collect the wounded.
The dead,Just to the fire,not to give life to pests.
One soldier picks up and carries to the bus to N78.
She had lost blood, quickly bring the wounded to the doctors and assistants.
Those with minor injuries treated quickly,
but the most serious were to be taken urgently.
N78 was not complicated, but was lucky that her one 22-caliber bullet.
just one 38 caliber had killed on the spot.
She of medium height, maybe not yielded all the conditions.
The doctor tried to act quickly as with other
Had risen overnight fever and tried to lower the temperature.
The commander was far from knowing what had happened to her,
Lieutenant Alexander asked to review maps routes and devise a new plan.
Given what had happened,was possible to repeat a similar situation.
And if so the mission could fail.
He took his time, spoke with the commanders John and Y.M. to asked that consideration be given to stay there maybe for a week.

I like so much how she singing this song)






"Nigts in white satin"

С Днем Рождения!
для Артем и моего брата Эдварда.

If you can guess how many time you was in my mind with this melody,
maybe you will be in verything I said.
Just listening and closed eyes,please.

сегодня
пить пиво и пить больше пива
но вы все еще здесь
сейчас я знаю,почему так.
где ТЫ?

A few meters from the makeshift living room sat the first commander and lieutenant.
This first one was called by the initials Y.M. and rarely said what is the meaning those two letters.
Lieutenant Alexander, much more sociable with their recruits,without losing authority and a particular charm for saying things.
It did not matter the time when Y.M. intentionally turned his head to see where were the other bottles they had asked the cook.
When stared under the lights the look,and nudged Alexander.
N78 crossing the street adorned with a mug of beer,when crossing in front of the other commander, who spoke hugging a girl whispering.
The second Commander simply turns his head, causing the shadow reflex when approaching.
Y.M notes.
Alexander hits the table while leaving the cards with a winning smile
-Maybe we should to say something.
And with his gaze on the cards gives a drink to the glass.
And Alexander answering.
-he knows what he does,just have fun...and you too-and added money over the table continue-these guys make me laugh.
here, under the lights, Commander WB was alone when he arrived the father of the girl and took her home.
WB sat down to smoke away from the bustle, I was somewhat tired and was eager to talk.
Perhaps too many choices or no at the time he thought of nothing.
N78 talking to friends, put two glasses on the table and filled.
She apologized to his friends and left.
A few minutes passed until she came walking slowly up WB and offered a drink,
but he, suspicious, refused.
Until she turned around and he said.
-Ok, I need a drink.
And while he lit a cigarette she said
"I can say something?
"As you wish,
provided that some day you stop -
And smiled
- Why are you sitting here alone, while your friends are having fun.
"I have fun, have a cigarette, a glass of beer and talking to a woman I do not know".This here call it luck, right?
-I don´t know.
-And what you know?
He quickly put to N78 in a silence.
-Why did you come here with a beer.
-Sorry,I don´t know.
-wait,come with me.
He took she by the hand and get to down of the lights and added-"we can to talk now"
In his credential, flirting and women.She saw it but not so quickly.
Then she spoke of things that she did not know whether it was right to say,but talking between questions and smiles.A rare feeling.
Had spent a few hours and everyone was sleeping,but she and WB talked until dawn arrived.
-why are you here? how your name?-He was trying to be serious, but his genius is not dominated...until she told him the truth.
She spoke about painful things,the lack of love and big beatings.
Wb reached her eyes and asked.-you run away?
-yes.She answer secure.
-God was not with you,just that.
-Maybe.
-And you will tell me your name or not?
She took a piece of paper and a pen from his pocket.So she wrote quickly and gave it.
-Why are not you more directly?
-We crawl,and the commander wants my work for you.
-shit, you could not say this before?
-Well, tell me if you love him.
-what?
-you loves him or not,your husband?
-I wanting know.
-good soldier,go sleep now and I see you later.I am really tired.
The sun started pestering the weary eyes,finally half lit cigarette that was waiting in his hand.
As she fixed her hair under his beret and before she go,Wb said.
-is a crime to beat the face of a woman,
you're pretty.Ok?
She smiled and went.
When Wb returns with his comrades, awakening to the soldiers who were sleeping, and give the order to clear the place before leaving.







P.S
Do not burn your head,
leave free)